There are some nights where I can’t get you out of my mind no matter what I do. It is as if you have seeped into ever crevice of my brain and I am now consumed by you. On nights like these, my heart, mind, body and soul ache for you.
Maybe you’re better off without me.
The greatest advice I have ever been given:
“A lot of times I find when people aren’t there for you the way you need it’s because they’re not even really able to be there for themselves”
When people tell you they love you, but you don’t feel like they do
When you have family and friends to talk to, but you feel like you’re a burden
Constant fear, constant worry. Anxiety is debilitating.
I wonder if you remember this blog. How I desperately wanted you to never see it but ended up giving in and showing you.
Do you still check to see how I am doing?
There are just some things you can never prepare yourself for. For instance…
Drifting from a close friend
The end of a relationship
A loved one dying
The feeling of helplessness, of pity and despair.
I keep holding onto the sweet memories that once were, that the present and future start to get darker and darker.
Hello darkness. I didn’t think I’d see you so soon.
I miss you so much already..
There is a boy I tutor who tells me that sometimes even when he’s home, he doesn’t feel at home. During our session he told me, “I want to go home.” I ask him, “where is home if not here?” He said, “I don’t know, but I don’t feel like I’m at home right now.”
Who would’ve thought I would resonate so well with a 6 year old. This empty suffocating feeling I get when I’m in my “house” is poisoning me. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where to go. All I know is I need to leave.
It hurts. It hurts. It hurts.
The future seems brighter with you by my side.