I keep going from being okay to being extremely depressed, to getting a little better, to really fucking depressed to the point I am not capable of doing anything. When will this end.
I am so tired of feeling like everyones second choice. I am tired of putting everyone else before myself. I am tired of caring so much and then not being cared for at all. I am tired of losing people. I am tired of people. I am tired of myself. But most of all, I am so tired because I did this to myself. I am my biggest enemy. I am torturing myself. I am torturing myself. And I’m tired of torturing myself…but I don’t know how to stop because I don’t know how else to live (if you even consider this living).