All I see is sadness, frustration, anger, misery. Why did it now become so….obvious? Maybe I’m seeking the bad instead of the good in the world. Maybe I’m blinded by my own darkness that I begin to see the darkness in others. So the only way to not see the sadness, is to stay away from other people because it gets harder to go throughout my days seeing the pain in their eyes. How do I help when I don’t know you? What do I do, when I can’t even control my own pain? I guess it’s easier to just push away from it all. Even though the noble and right thing to do is face it. But I’m tired. I’m so tired and I don’t know if I have the strength in me to try anymore.
I love being alone
But I hate being lonely