As time stood still


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As my eyes grow heavy
Carry me into the forest
Lay me down
Onto the sweet smelling grass
& by the blooming flowers
With the sounds of chirps
& water filling my every bone
The mellow breeze sway me
Bringing calm serenity
As my soul seeps into the soil
Carrying me home





Love me still
through the shifting tides
& flickering lights

Love me still
when the flowers bloom
& blue clouds roam

Love me still
when I forget what it means
to love myself

See me still
so I can too see you still
love you still.



Will you love me still?

The voice in my mind telling me no, but my bones telling me yes. A quivering state of being, getting lost in a flood of possibilities that only I see so vividly. When the wind blows, my body follows only to get wrapped around the trees; stopping me from reaching you. Are you still there? Can you see me despite the shadows that surround me? Do you love me still?



I have this aching feeling that I’m no longer here
That this
This is only an illusion
An illusion so explicitly created in order for me to believe that I am more than I am
I feel empty
Like someone has come inside me and yanked out all of my sensory motors
Like someone has taken my ability to feel
I feel no excitement
I feel no fear
I feel like something that just exists
With no purpose
No motive
No nothing
And I can’t help but wonder
Must I continue to dig into my skin
Only to help me realize that I am still here
That I am still living?
Must I continue to evoke pain on myself
To wake myself from this never-ending struggle called life?
It hurts, it hurts.